Friday, January 18, 2013
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Being Honest
As most of the readers of this blog know, each blog posting is few and far between. This is now the 3rd posting in three days which is a new record for me! I thought I would share why that is. This will require me to be honest!
There is the saying "If you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything at all!" We'll that's why I don't blog. Not because I try to live by that rule but because I have realized that I am usually in a negative thought pattern and I don't want to post things that people will read and judge me for.
Yes I know as a Christ follower I am not suppose to be negative! That is so false! I am human just like every other person on this earth. Being a follower of Christ does make me different because I choose to make different choices and I can have faith and I can trust in God to help me along. Doesn't mean my life will be perfect or that I won't suffer.
So why am I negative, you might be thinking? I am a sufferer of depression and anxiety. My negative thoughts come from my depression and those thoughts in turn cause me anxiety at times.
Back to how this effects my blogging. When things don't go right in your life and you are talking with someone you don't really know your tendency is to smile and make the impression that life is good even if it's not. If I blog when feeling down or negative it is extremely hard to keep a "smile" on my words. I have realized this is why I have not blogged much.
I have decided it would be helpful to blog regardless. It will be helpful for me to express the real me, to be honest. Possibly get encouragement from those that read, but it may also be helpful to those reading. Maybe someone else needs to hear that they are not alone! That they are not the only one that struggles!
Thank you all for letting me be honest and not judging me! :)
There is the saying "If you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything at all!" We'll that's why I don't blog. Not because I try to live by that rule but because I have realized that I am usually in a negative thought pattern and I don't want to post things that people will read and judge me for.
Yes I know as a Christ follower I am not suppose to be negative! That is so false! I am human just like every other person on this earth. Being a follower of Christ does make me different because I choose to make different choices and I can have faith and I can trust in God to help me along. Doesn't mean my life will be perfect or that I won't suffer.
So why am I negative, you might be thinking? I am a sufferer of depression and anxiety. My negative thoughts come from my depression and those thoughts in turn cause me anxiety at times.
Back to how this effects my blogging. When things don't go right in your life and you are talking with someone you don't really know your tendency is to smile and make the impression that life is good even if it's not. If I blog when feeling down or negative it is extremely hard to keep a "smile" on my words. I have realized this is why I have not blogged much.
I have decided it would be helpful to blog regardless. It will be helpful for me to express the real me, to be honest. Possibly get encouragement from those that read, but it may also be helpful to those reading. Maybe someone else needs to hear that they are not alone! That they are not the only one that struggles!
Thank you all for letting me be honest and not judging me! :)
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Can't Sleep
Well...I have been struggling with sleep the last couple of weeks. I have always had problems falling asleep and so I have a prescription for Ambien. I usually try not to take it, as there are times when I'm just flat out tired and nothing would keep me awake. This is not one of those times!
After the holidays my sleeping schedule was off a bit (not uncommon), however this time I just haven't been able to sleep properly since.
It started with everyone being sick and so you sleep all day and all night....as much as possible. Then your up all night cause one of the kids are sick. So when you finally have a chance to go to bed and take an ambien it doesn't seem to kick in because your body is now on a different schedule.
I finally thought that I was getting it all worked out when I threw my back out just enough to be annoying and keep me up all night! So here it is 1:12am and I am laying on the couch because this is where my back feels the best at the moment...I have already taken my sleep aid but does sleep come? No!No! I'm stuck here to suffer!
I will go try warm milk now! Leave comments of other ideas I could try! I can't continue this way!!!
After the holidays my sleeping schedule was off a bit (not uncommon), however this time I just haven't been able to sleep properly since.
It started with everyone being sick and so you sleep all day and all night....as much as possible. Then your up all night cause one of the kids are sick. So when you finally have a chance to go to bed and take an ambien it doesn't seem to kick in because your body is now on a different schedule.
I finally thought that I was getting it all worked out when I threw my back out just enough to be annoying and keep me up all night! So here it is 1:12am and I am laying on the couch because this is where my back feels the best at the moment...I have already taken my sleep aid but does sleep come? No!No! I'm stuck here to suffer!
I will go try warm milk now! Leave comments of other ideas I could try! I can't continue this way!!!
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Procrastinating
Tired, cold, and should be working!
Instead I am messing around with social networking sites and blogging! I need a personal time management coach. I know what I need to do, same with exercising, you know what you need to do, you just need someone to MAKE you do it!
Off to work I go right now...... but I have been thinking of different blogs, especially with my pinterest stuff (so addicting) I've done and Christmas coming...so expect to see more here on Red Cup Central soon!
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Love These Kids
Aaron is in Preschool this year. Our good friends Scott and Debra have their daughter in Preschool as well and they are in the same class. Here is a picture of Emma and Aaron waiting for school and Toby joining them wishing he could stay!! I SSSSOOOO love these guys!
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Busy Life
Well all,
If there are still any that may read this blog, I have been super busy. As I always am. I do it to myself but I like it!!! There are several people in my life, mainly my family, that thinks that I need to stop doing. I don't want to stop doing because this is what I want to do. I want to be a stay at home mom who is VERY involved in the school. So yes I am going to take on projects from the PTA! I may get stressed but who wouldn't? I am also coaching soccer with Jeremy. I love it! We have to be there anyway so why not be involved and coach! I am working part time for three different companies. This I can do without but we need money! Again I may get stressed but I say all this to say even though I am busy and stressed, I love my life and my choices! YUP!
Here is a quick update on Jeremy Jr.....He just got his violin and is VERY excited, as am I. Check him out:
If there are still any that may read this blog, I have been super busy. As I always am. I do it to myself but I like it!!! There are several people in my life, mainly my family, that thinks that I need to stop doing. I don't want to stop doing because this is what I want to do. I want to be a stay at home mom who is VERY involved in the school. So yes I am going to take on projects from the PTA! I may get stressed but who wouldn't? I am also coaching soccer with Jeremy. I love it! We have to be there anyway so why not be involved and coach! I am working part time for three different companies. This I can do without but we need money! Again I may get stressed but I say all this to say even though I am busy and stressed, I love my life and my choices! YUP!
Here is a quick update on Jeremy Jr.....He just got his violin and is VERY excited, as am I. Check him out:
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