Being Honest

As most of the readers of this blog know, each blog posting is few and far between. This is now the 3rd posting in three days which is a new record for me! I thought I would share why that is. This will require me to be honest!

There is the saying "If you have nothing nice to say, then don't say anything at all!" We'll that's why I don't blog. Not because I try to live by that rule but because I have realized that I am usually in a negative thought pattern and I don't want to post things that people will read and judge me for.

Yes I know as a Christ follower I am not suppose to be negative! That is so false! I am human just like every other person on this earth. Being a follower of Christ does make me different because I choose to make different choices and I can have faith and I can trust in God to help me along. Doesn't mean my life will be perfect or that I won't suffer.

So why am I negative, you might be thinking? I am a sufferer of depression and anxiety. My negative thoughts come from my depression and those thoughts in turn cause me anxiety at times.

Back to how this effects my blogging. When things don't go right in your life and you are talking with someone you don't really know your tendency is to smile and make the impression that life is good even if it's not. If I blog when feeling down or negative it is extremely hard to keep a "smile" on my words. I have realized this is why I have not blogged much.

I have decided it would be helpful to blog regardless. It will be helpful for me to express the real me, to be honest. Possibly get encouragement from those that read, but it may also be helpful to those reading. Maybe someone else needs to hear that they are not alone! That they are not the only one that struggles!

Thank you all for letting me be honest and not judging me! :)