Mourning Booth

So Todd showed me this video tonight. This sums up where I am right now. Not just because my Dad died but just the different things in my life throughout this period have brought me to the "valley". I know that God will see me through and that He is my comfort but I need to mourn. I need to go through this period in my life. I need to cry!!!!!!

It's Been One Year! I Miss You DAD!

This past Wednesday, August 26th was the one year anniversary of my father's passing. I miss him so very much! I love you Dad and I will see you when I get to heaven! I know you want to show God the guitar chord but give the guitar back and let him play too! That was a joke between us if you want to know more you can leave a comment.

Aaron's First Haircut!

Second Home Care Visit

Before we went to the hospital the pre-admissions nurse told us that if Nathan could still fit in a onsie that we should get some so Nathan could scratch at his sores. My mom picked some up and we were amazed that they were big enough. We hadn't had to use them, that is until today. Last night Nathan decided to pick off all the steri strips from his sternum incision. He also picked the scab under that incision that was from the drain. That left a very fresh and sore indent.

We had our second and final home nursing visit and she said Nathan looks great. She feels that we don't need anymore visits but is going to check with Nathan's pacer team and see if they are concerned about him pulling off his strips. If they are we might have another nursing visit. But all in all Nathan is doing wonderful!

Me on the other hand, I'm not doing so hot. For whatever reason I have become depressed. I just want to find a big rock and his there with no one to bother me for a good month. I probably would get lonely but that is how I feel. I think was is playing a part in me feeling thus way has to deal with the way I cope. While everything is happening I am in what I call " business mode" where I just get done what needs to get done and there is no time for emotions. Now that things have settled down I deal with all the emotions of the event and with that and the lack of sleep I got while in the hospital topped with financial struggle is probably what caused my depression. It doesn't help that the financial struggle is worrying Jeremy and putting more areas on our relationship.

I know despite how I feel, God is my provider. He has provided continuously for us and I know He will continue to do so! Please continue to pray for Nathan but also for me and the entire family!

Out of Touch

Hello all! It feels like forever since I wrote. I haven't been able to get the Internet back yet and when I am where I can get it my computer doesn't want to stay working for more then five minutes.

Nathan us doing extremely well! He us running and playing like any normal three year old. Though I am glad to see that he is not too much back to normal or he would probably hurt himself.

Things at home are starting to slowly get back into a grove. I think I need to get back into a normal grove more then anybody. The boys seem into theirs already. The three of them are so cute.

Well I have been out of touch for so long I thought I would say hi. When I have more time tomorrow I will fill you in on the details of what's been going on. Thank you all for your continued prayers.

Sorry...No Updates

It has been great to be home. I have to get used to the idea that this pacemaker will continue to work properly and I won't have to check Nathan so often. I guess you could say I am a little paranoid after watching his heart beat improperly for two weeks. It will just take time to get used to the idea that a machine is what jeeps my boys heart going correctly.

Nathan us doing great. He us running around he like he has no limits. He is still sore and slow going but all in all he us great. We go Wednesday for a follow up with his cardiologist and the pacer specialist. I will update you on what happens.

Jeremy Jr and Aaron are so happy to have us home and we are all taking some time to readjust.

Sorry for not updating lately. Our Internet is off and so until I get that taken care of I am blogging from my phone which as awesome as the iPhone is it is hard to blog on. Once we rectify the Internet problem I promise I will put up some pictures.

Home, Finally!

What a busy day. We left the hospital around 3pm dropped off our prescriptions on the way and then finally arrived home. It took pretty much the rest of the day and early evening to get settled and get things put away.

Nathan is doing great. He turned into more I'd himself once we got home and I don't even think he said ouch more then 5 times. He us amazing.

Jeremy and I are exhuasted and heading to bed. I have pictures of our homecoming that I will post tomorrow.

Homecoming

The plan is that we are heading home this morning! I feel like we should be having a pep rally and a parade to celebrate, we've been here so long. Ha ha

Today will be busy with trying to get out of here and then with getting Nathan settled at home so I won't update until later in the afternoon if not early evening. If something does change though I will post a short update.

When we get home I have tins of pictures of our stay that I will start posting. Even with all this stuff going on Nathan was so stinkin cute!

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers and please continue to pray for Nathans recovery.